Mood Swings

I've been feeling pretty hormonal this week. I don't want to take on anyone else's stress at the moment, I just want to curl up and have a cuddle. But some people keep shovelling their stress my way, thinking that big strong Brooke will make everything better.

I need a real holiday.

Brooke x

Monday Blues

I'm feeling a little bit blue today. There's nothing particularly wrong; I know how lucky I am in life, and really can't complain. I suppose it's just hormones.

Friday night was really fun. I had lots of energy and enthusiasm (much to my client's delight), writhing on top of him like a wild thing. It was one of those nights where I was more focused on myself than him, but he really seemed to get off on this. There's nothing sexier than a confident lover. I worked up quite a sweat, and afterwards didn't feel quite as guilty about skipping the gym that day! Lost in my own sexuality, I managed to come for him (loudly), which set him off straight afterwards. He almost matched me vocally; I do hope those walls weren't thin.

The rest of the weekend was ok, but just a 'shrug of the shoulders' kind of ok. I'm still craving something that I can't have, and although I'm fine and have been through plenty worse, it's still making me sparkle a little less. Hope I brighten up soon.

Brooke x

Feeling Better

I'm feeling a bit better today, was quite under the weather yesterday so I stayed in bed for most of it. I'm quite glad that I don't have an appointment tonight either, I should be back on top form by Friday.

In a personal record, I haven't had an orgasm for at least 2 weeks. That's quite unusual for me; it's normal to not always come with clients, but I haven't even been masturbating. I've had a few naughty dreams, and a couple of times I've actually started to touch myself but then become too tired and given up. I'm hoping this is just a short phase while my hormones do their thing, and I'll be back on track soon. An appointment with my favourite would do the trick, but nothing lined up with him at the moment.

If I had a report card, it would read "must try harder". Maybe I should go watch some porn.

Brooke x

Up & Down

I have no idea why, but I've been feeling pretty hormonal lately. My moods are up and down, and I've been lying awake at night for hours when I usually sleep like a log. I thought a bit of masturbation might send me off, but I came three times before I admitted defeat last night! My body was completely worn out but my brain just wouldn't stop ticking. My head was full of all the little things that have been bugging me recently; men, fair weather friends and unreasonable neighbours who complain every time you set foot on your own floor. We are not noisy!

The sun has done wonders in perking me up, but it seems like more of an effort to stay cheerful this week when it usually comes so naturally to me. Hopefully it will pass - I have complete confidence that it will.

I was hoping to see one of my regulars tomorrow night but he's off on holiday for 2 weeks, so I might find myself at a loose end unless I get another booking. It's been a while since I had a long bath, maybe I'll go for that.

Brooke x

24th April

So I had a night off work last night to clear my head, but the stangest thing happened. Despite my nasty experience, I found myself really horny! I'd completely worn myself out by cleaning my flat top to bottom and conquering the mountain of ironing I'd accumulated; but when I collapsed into bed at midnight my mind was racing. I dug out my little black book (it always brings a smile to my face) and remembered all of the guys (and girls) I've been with throughout my life. That's probably what kicked it off; approximately 10 years of hormones captured in one book! All the kisses, fumbles, blow jobs and fucks - the good, bad and the ugly.

I restrained myself from watching porn as I'm sure my flatmate heard me a couple of weeks ago... never plucked up the courage to ask her but am still slightly mortified. I did masturbate furiously until the early hours though, which is a pretty good work out! I thought that a good enough excuse to skip the gym this morning and took a leisurely stroll in the sunshine instead.

Be good (unless you feel like being bad),

Brooke x